One of those nights. That has a lot to do with where my head is at. Oh no, its not in a bad place. I am in a state of cleanse. And I cant wait to get to New York; This company will blow up when me and Dan are together.
But on a personal note;
A lot has been happening in my life. And I need to vent, like I used to. Before this company; Before any of this used to be what it was, I would just sit down, and free write.
So those of you lucky enough to read this one time, youre in for treat. Thoughts, and emotions, creations and output; pen to paper; fingers pecking at a keyboard.
And so it begins;
The life I was supposed to live. The way things were supposed to be. It disappeared several years ago. But who really knows? Who understands what we are and who we are, let alone what we are supposed to be. I claim none. Yet we can definitely pretend we know. The only way we can fool everyone is by living life for us. A few notes ago I said that The only way to be truly selfless was to be selfish. Because it all starts with you.
I still feel this way… I feel like to be successful, in the business sense; In a personal sense, we need to appreciate who we are; what are needs are and what our wants are as humans. And chase them. This is what I am getting back to.
The changes are full fledged; When I have a lot going on, I focus; I get things done. And then sometimes things shut down on me and I lose it all. I almost had that moment earlier; I tend to think too much about the smallest details. Short quippy conversations with good friends helped bring me back to square.
And right now, square is what I need. I am working, its 1045pm. Im in my favorite place in Atlanta, Octane Coffee; Its packed, people are drinking. Im working on a Chimay Tripel. and I am ok sitting here listening to Kid Cudi’s Pursuit of Hapiness and reflecting on the last 4 years of my life.
A poem for my friends; A poem for myself; A poem to work it out in my head;
Apparently, I like semi-colons;
But semi-colons are like people. Not quite a colon, not quite a comma; not quite a period.
not because we are indecisive, but because we spend our time attempting to please all.
The semi colon is a happy medium. Everyone can find some sense of satisfaction in a semi-colon.
Time to take off; time to fly. time to soar, time to look down at the world and see what it really is; millions of lives, working together to make something that we know as our own life. without ever knowing their affect on us. And we allow these people to get to us; to affect our days; To put their pressure and sense of self and emotions and agony on our shoulders. But no longer. Today begins a new. A fresh start.
The semi colon will begin to be worked out of my published works. From now on, decisions will be made. Periods. Commas, maybe even colons: It doesnt matter, because a definitive is made. Something has been chosen, to please no one but me.
Its time to live for myself; To live selflessly is to live selfishly. New York, here I come. I hope your arms are wide open, because I come baring gifts. And a whole lot of me. I am here to take what I can. and grow from it.
Welcome Kapil;
I’m in the pursuit of happiness and I know…
I’ll be fine once I get it. I’ll be good.
with love, to my support team. With love to Dan. With love to the friends who take time to listen, and step away, and be real friends. That is love. nothing else.
I will be in New York soon. Not Atlanta. Not Texas. Not San Francisco.
New York.
Because that is where I belong. And i will stop chasing dreams.
Its time to chase reality.
Emo’d out. But I’ll be more the fine.
-K
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